My life...for the time being...

So basically this song ('Boy Like Me' by Jessica Harp) is my life. In a nutshell. At this moment. Well, for the most part. Weird. I know.

You're the kind of boy who likes the kind of girls
That like to fool around with the boys on the first date

I'm the kind of girl who ain't supposed to like those boys

But I kinda like those boys that like those kind of girls

Well maybe its fate we should meet up for a date so

We can sit around and talk about

Those things we just cant talk about

like making love and drinkin till the sun comes up

Well hallelujah I finally found a boy like me

Lord have mercy I think Im in a fantasy

You may talk alot of stuff sayin what you gonna do and what do

you want to do with me

Well Hallelujah I finally found a boy like me

You're the kind of boy my daddy used to warn

would walk into my life and lead me down the wrong way

I'm the kind of girl who tried hard to ignore

those things that daddy warned about those kinda boys

Well whats a girl to do with a big ole' boy like you

when we sit around and talk those we can just talk about

like making love and drinkin until the sun comes up

Well hallelujah I finally found a boy like me

Lord have mercy I think I'm in a fantasy

You may talk alot of stuff sayin you gonna do what and

what Do you want to do with me

Well Hallelujah I finally found a boy like me

We sit around talkin about those things we can just talk about

like making love and drinkin until the sun comes up

Well hallelujah I finally found a boy like me

Lord have mercy I think Im in a fantasy

You may talk alot of stuff sayin what you gonna do what and what

Do you want to do with me

Well Hallelujah Lord have mercy

Hallelujah I finally found a boy like me

Yay ya

Like me

Music is what feelings sound like.

I have always been a realy lover of music. So, here for your viewing (and listening pleasure) are a few of my current favorite songs. No particular order...just spreading the love.

1. Hey, Soul Sister by Train. "Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me. You gave my life direction, a game show love connection we can't deny."
2. Billionaire by Travis McCoy. "Oh every time I close my eyes I see my name in shining lights. A different city every night oh. I swear the world better prepare for when I’m a billionaire."
3. This Ain't No Love Song by Trace Adkins. "And the earth didn't move when you first said my name. I didn't feel a thing, no not me, my heart didn't skip a beat."
4. Wild Ponies by Kellie Pickler. "Cause wild ponies are born to run. Don't you know wild ponies don't belong to no one."
5. Love Like Crazy by Lee Brice. "Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse 'I love you.' Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common sense. Never let your prayin' knees get lazy. And love like crazy."
6. Makin' Me Fall In Love Again by Kellie Pickler. "Baby sometimes you can say the craziest things, I love how you don't care what nobody thinks. You're highly original, totally in-typical, never change, all I gotta do is look at your smiling face. There you go makin' me fall in love again."
7. Perfectly Lonely by John Mayer. "Nothing to do, nowhere to be, a simple little kind of free. Nothing to do, no one but me and that's all I need. I'm perfectly lonely. 'Cause I don't belong to anyone, nobody belongs to me."
8. Airplanes by B.o.B. "Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now. Wish right now." "And when your plans unravel in the sand what would you wish for if you had one chance?"
9. Lotta Boot Left To Fill by Eric Church. "You say you're the real deal, but you play what, nobody feels. You sing about Johnny Cash, the man in black would have whipped your ass! I don't think Waylon done' it that way, and if he was here he'd say: 'Hoss neither did Hank.' I ain't doggin what you're doin' but boys come on lets get real. You still got a lot of boot left to fill."
10. Boys In The Summer by Jessie James. "Summer only lasts so long and there's nothing wrong with having some fun, yeah. No need to apologize, just close your eyes and kiss on me tonight."
    

If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again.

I feel like I've been given a second chance. The opportunity to start over with my college life at UCF.

Granted, I know that's not entirely true, but in a way it is. When I failed out of UCF my entire life fell apart, I had no idea what I would do, if I could still live where I had been planning to live, if I would be able to afford to stay in Orlando. Those were just the beginning of my frantic fears of leaving UCF.

Over time I pulled things together. I spent the entire summer after I left UCF planning out my community college education and preparing to take classes that fall. I gradually picked up all the pieces of my shattered future and patiently took the time the put everything back together.

Now, two years later I have finally created a masterpiece out of the thousands of pieces of my then "future."

Getting the letter from UCF saying that I was allowed to return to classes for Fall 2010. I. Was. Ecstatic. For me, that had been the best moment of my life.

I am very anxious to get back into the swing of things at UCF, classes, football games, homecoming, parents weekends...the whole nine yards. But, there will be something missing...

I know for a fact I will not be returning to being an active sister in my sorority. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore my sorority, but when I joined I was a whole other person. I've come a long way in the past two years. While I am upset that my participation in Greek like was so short lived, I am looking forward to being able to get involved in other aspects of campus life. I am beyond excited to get to have the opportunity to walk onto this campus and start fresh.

It's exhilarating.

“No mistake or failure is as bad as to stop and not try again.”

It’s the love. Sex is a marvelous way to communicate love sharing all dimensions of our selves: physical, mental, emotional and spiritual.

I’m dumb and completely oblivious when it comes to boys. Ask any one, I am just clueless. I have so many questions about them (boys) than any 22 year old should ever have. All those things that girls tend to learn in high school are complete mysteries to me.
I get thrown into the “friend zone” and never given a second look.

I’m not bad looking, I’m happy with who I am, but still…

I. Am. Clueless.

Recently I have had such random run-ins with boys. Seriously. Random. And I don’t really know what to do about it. I blame it all on my own awkward-ness….I think that’s the charm in me. Someday I’ll find someone who balances out my random ass awkward-ness.

Anywho, back to my frantic, mass confusion. What’s with the whole “being a whore thing?” I was talking with one of my guy friends from work, we somehow got on the topic of sex (pretty much anything that you can fit under that topic heading was discussed). He told me that he has slept with 33 women.

My jaw legit just dropped. I by no means am a prude. Conservative, yes; but prude, definitely not. I think that sex is very important in a relationship and you don’t necessarily have to wait until marriage. I personally cannot see myself getting engaged and married before having sex with someone. And that by no means makes me a whore. But 33? That just sounds astronomical to me. I ideally would like to keep my number on one hand…I think sex should be something shared between two people in a serious relationship. It just blows my mind that you can be so disconnected from something that you don’t even feel and acknowledge the relationship between two people having sex.

And don’t get me wrong, I know it’s not just the guys out there. Women are experiencing more sexual freedom now than they ever have in the past. Women, not only are dominating the workplace, but the bedroom as well. I brought the whole man-whore thing up with one of my sorority sisters and she said that a best friend from back home, at last count, had slept with 60 men. Once again, my mind was blown.